full moon in libra | april 27 2021

theme: relationships, interdependence, companionship, guarded boundaries, start to honor your needs again as well as your relationships needs, and re-see yourself

tarot spread:

What’s been hidden that I'm not looking at in my life?

What is being magnified in my life right now?

THE MOON

[pastel yellow and lavender moon back lit by pastel cosmos, shining onto teal and read vase with pink snake emerging under the moonlight]

+ generic meaning: illusion, fear, anxiety, subconscious, intuition

+ to answer this question: what's being hidden is what's hidden hah you may be projecting old fears into a current situation and must be wary of making fast decisions because in the future you may reflect back and realize you only had part of the information you needed you are also ignoring your dreams - at night or those that want to burst through your creative body in the daylight - and you need you. you are now tending to think what situations mean which isn't your "home" state, so remember it is safe and provides more real-time information if you feel what situations mean. you are a clear channel for infinite wisdom and an instrument for living what you have learned in the astral plane. the process of living in cycle - whichever one calls to you (menstrual, moon, seasonal, solar) - will be immensely healing for you. trust the guidance of the healers you have appointed in your life and see with awe and amazement the creative majesty that others already see you as. reconcile the distance that lives between how you understand your identity and how much others celebrate you. you are safe to use energy of your day to celebrate yourself and the human being and doing that you are. thank yourself for living into exactly what you were brought here to do, the same way you revere others for doing the same. nothing is as it seems. you are not as you seem to yourself. break free you are allowed. i love you. i am here with you.

What in my life right now am I scared of facing?

What is being revealed to me from the inside out?

What’s holding me back from leaving the shore?

FOUR OF SWORDS

[key lime pie green, creamsicle, orange, and pinks - the sun is shining on a snaker, coiled up (lol also the way some people would pronounce "curled up")in the grass with its chin and neck bent up toward the sun and the four daggers hanging in the sky pointed down toward the snake's body]

+ generic meaning: rest, relaxation, meditation, contemplation, recuperation

+ to answer this question: polyps on my uterus emerged and surgery was required. rest for a week+ was necessary thereafter. i haven't been getting the sleep my body needs, and once i get into my easeful morning (or any time during the day routine), it seems hard to find more than a few hours for engineering work. rest seems more urgent this past year than ever. sprinkle rest. recharge is what allows you to enter into the next phase with the energy that is required. your phone and laptop will shutdown on you unless you charge it and restart/update every so often. you are no different and to push yourself past limits for optics to not upset your parents or coworkers means you will bear the results in your health and well being and soon. you have financial worries and heavy burdens. time to take a step back for a new perspective. you are afraid of sitting in anything coming up that you can't immediately act on to change. now is not the time for decision - acting and being yes, but decision no. spend time clearing your mind of mental and lived-in-body emotional clutter so that when it is time to make a decision it is made from the wisdom of the body. you are not able to leave shore because you are under threat of being skewered by daggers you have hung over yourself. take the daggers by the handle and rearrange them so you may rest in your times of respite in peace. see rest as sacred rest and not as a chore. create spaces for yourself again to rest and create. make a new color in your google calendar.

What guidance do I need from the full moon?

What is she communicating with me?

How can I be deeper in my wisdom?

How can I blast off?

THE HIGH PRIESTESS

[red, pinks, light yellow, blues - crowned woman with vitiligo in cosmic skirt juggles pentagons staring into distance and has a chess piece (?) in her hand]

+ generic meaning: intuition, sacred knowledge, divine feminine, the subconscious mind

+ to answer this question: the high priestess has the unique ability to travel between the conscious and subconscious spaces fluidly, fluently, and effortlessly. she is edgewalker. what is appearing is not as it seems and there are more profound influences at play. you can blast off by trusting you have important information in your codes. you can deeper your wisdom and make more appropriate, supportive choices for you by seeing silence to travel to your underworld as a worthwhile use of time. when you deny yourself that, you replicate the lack of support you have always felt in family and outer world. it's time to really mother and father yourself. it's time to only give her what she needs, not the routines, tasks, and life that is easiest to regurgitate over a family dinner. solutions to relieving your burdens will not come through rationalizing and thinking about it. i encourage you to see this time for what it is - a time of heightened intuitive ability and psychic insight. you are supported, cheered for, and so many beings here for the highest vibration of love and loving you are happy to see you owning it. we are proud of your innate ability and medicine that is trusting, nurturing, celebrating, empathizing and seeing the unseen.

Where in my life am I waiting for the lightening to strike?

What does the lightning strike mean for me?

FIVE OF SWORDS

[pink and red chicken wielding one of five swords under a spring shower]

+ generic meaning: conflict, disagreements, competition, defeat, winning at all costs

+ to answer this question: this card turns up when you've had a falling out and are walking away with a sense of loss. soured, regret, wishing someone never said something to you, can't unsee, can't be undone. when the lightning strikes, PICK YOUR BATTLES. if you have felt like you have come out as a loser in any situation in life, accept defeat. learn from it. sadness you have a toolkit to deal with; disappointment is not so easy because you have/had an active role to play. ensure that as this moon wanes, you work to bring what you are disappointed about into the light. usually disappointment without appropriate tools leads to denial. acknowledge where you are disappointed in another or yourself and bless yourself for doing the tricky sticky work there. your disappointment is valid, but is your disappointment justified? bless your disappointment for she has been trying to speak with you, impart some wisdom, for some time.

reference: biddy tarot

rune card

[theme for new moon intention, brought back here for reflection]

BERKANA

[woman with yellow headscarf and pink sneakers juggling boxes as she moves into

her new apartment, which has pink and white striped walls, and a green carpet with

intricate white flower print]

+ generic meaning: birthing something but without emotional attachment,

renewal, new beginnings

+ new moon intention: NESTING - set up home (nest) in a way that reflected my

personality and my values (i.e. no buying everything new from IKEA, but allowing it to

take time to come together as i recuperated from surgery)

+ full moon reflection: here at the peak of the cycle, i acknowledge what has come to fruition and the work i have put in to see this intention through to reality. i allow things to still come together but with less intensity than the last week(s) leading up to the full moon. i have shelves up in the bathroom, couches out in the living room. all that's left is wall decorations, closet and putting away clothes, and string lights on ceiling. and i want those to come forward as they are meant to in divine timing before the next new moon (may 11 2021 - before julia comes), allow needs, desire, visions to change as this creative process of nesting moves through you.